Difficult

My double vision
我视线的重影
Is only amplifying everything he isn't
只会放大他的一切不是
Till I feel less attached and bored to death but listen
直至极度依恋与无聊至极的状况有所好转 但听好
It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition
这并非谁人过错 只怪我状况不妙
And I've been thinking if I move out this year
我一直在思忖 若我今年搬出去
I'll feel my parents slipping
父母离我而去的失落 将席卷而来
Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment
而且我也担心那种承诺
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing
有时我真觉得 自己错过了什么
Oh I know spiraling is miserable
哦 我深知 陷入不幸漩涡 好似满载苦痛的怪圈
I should probably go back home
我该踏上归家路
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
为何却深感举步维艰 寸步难行
Oh I hope I wake up invisible
希望醒来 我能隐于无形
I'd be someone no one knows
做个影子一般的人
I guess I'm just difficult
我大抵是不合群罢
To name this feeling
若要名状这感受
Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving
得花费无数光阴 某种悲伤弥漫四野
But over what I never had, so I've been speaking
只为那从未有过的感受 故近来我和心理医生
To my therapist, I call her every weekend
交流了一番 每周末都有给她打电话
I meant to tell you
我本想告诉你
How I've hated how we left things when it fell through
我极不愿面对分手的难堪
'Cause you were everything to me, where did you run to?
毕竟你是我的一切 你躲去了哪儿？
Was it something that I said that colored you blue?
是不是我说了什么 惹得你忧郁？
Oh I know spiraling is miserable
哦 我深知 陷入不幸漩涡 好似满载苦痛的怪圈
I should probably go back home
我该踏上归家路
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
为何却深感举步维艰 寸步难行
Oh I hope I wake up invisible
希望醒来 我能隐于无形
I'd be someone no one knows
做个影子一般的人
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
我大抵是不合群 不合群罢了
Difficult
难与人相处
Difficult
怪女孩一个
I've been drinking
而我借酒消愁
And staying up too late reliving bad decisions
熬更守夜 回想那个决定
I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it
我以为 原地咆哮能解决问题
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing
有时我真觉得 自己错过了什么
Oh I know spiraling is miserable
哦 我深知 陷入不幸漩涡 好似满载苦痛的怪圈
I should probably go back home
我该踏上归家路
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
为何却深感举步维艰 寸步难行
Oh I hope I wake up invisible
希望醒来 我能隐于无形
I'd be someone no one knows
做个影子一般的人
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
我大抵是不合群 不合群罢了
Oh I know spiraling is miserable
哦 我深知 陷入不幸漩涡 好似满载苦痛的怪圈
I should probably go back home
我该踏上归家路
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
为何却深感举步维艰 寸步难行
Oh I hope I wake up invisible
希望醒来 我能隐于无形
I'd be someone no one knows
做个影子一般的人
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
我大抵是不合群 不合群罢了