Mansion

Insidious is blind inception
狡诈作恶只是盲目的开始
What's reality with all these questions
这些问题的真相又是怎样
Feels like I missed my alarm slept in slept in
我好像错过了清醒时刻 再次昏睡过去
Broken legs but I chase perfection
双腿无力但仍旧追逐着完美人生
These walls are my blank expression
我的面庞就像四周的墙壁般茫然
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
我被困在意识的枷锁中 无法挣脱
And it's lonely inside this mansion mansion mansion
这个屋子是如此孤寂 我独自一人游荡其中
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
我的思想如歌词建筑的房屋
They're all over the place
它们无处不在
There's songs in the mirrors
映在镜子中
Written all over the floors all over the chairs
印在地板上 绘在椅子里
You get the uncut version of life
当我走下楼去
When I go downstairs
你会看到我未经修饰的人生
That's where I write when I'm in a bad
心情失落时我会在那里倾诉
Place and need to release
释放内心的烦闷
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
你会更加了解我 你不会想要看到的
I put holes in the walls with both
我用双手 不停敲打着墙壁
Of my fists 'til they bleed
直至鲜血流出 伤痕累累
You might get a glimpse of how
你可能会明白
I cope with all this anger in me
我是怎么释放内心的愤怒
Physically abused now that's the room that
身体上的折磨 就是那个房间
I don't want to be in
我不愿踏足半分
That picture ain't blurry at all
被折磨的回忆依然清晰
I just don't want to see it
我只是不愿再回想
These walls ain't blank I just think
墙壁上已没有空白
I don't want to see 'em
我只是不想再看到它们
But why not I'm in here so I might as well read 'em
但既然已经到了这里 还是好好看一下吧
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
我要为这无法化解的怒气感谢你
Wish I could take a match and burn this
真希望一把火把这里烧掉
Whole room to the ground
让一切化为尘土
Matter of fact I think Ima burn this room right now
是的我现在只想把这里烧掉 一切化为灰烬
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
这样那些回忆就会消失
You used to put me in the corner so you could
你过去常把我逼得无路可走 这样你就可以
See the fear in my eyes
看清我眼中的恐惧
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til
再把我拖下楼 狠狠殴打我
I screamed and I cried
直到我痛哭尖叫
Congratulations you'll always have a room in my mind
恭喜你 我永远不会再忘记你了
But Ima keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
但我会紧闭门扉 化为内心的旋律 不再回想
Insidious is blind inception
狡诈作恶只是盲目的开始
What's reality with all these questions
这些问题的真相又是怎样
Feels like I missed my alarm slept in slept in slept in
我好像错过了清醒时刻 再次昏睡过去
Slept in broken legs but I chase perfection
双腿无力但仍旧追逐着完美人生
These walls are my blank expression
我的面庞就像四周的墙壁般茫然
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
我被困在意识的枷锁中 无法挣脱
And it's lonely inside this mansion inside this mansion
这个屋子是如此孤寂 我独自一人游荡其中
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
满屋尽是痛楚
See my problem is I don't fix things
问题在于我的无动于衷
I just try to repaint cover em up like it never happen
我只是在试图掩盖那些痕迹 仿佛从未发生过
Say I wish I could change
我希望自己可以改变
Are you confused
你困惑吗
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
来吧 去到楼上 我会让你明白
This room's full of regrets just
这个房间充满懊悔
Keeps getting fuller it seems
悔恨似乎仍在蔓延
The moment I walk in to it's the same moment
走进去的那一刻
That I wanna leave
我想马上离开这里
I get sick to my stomach every time
每一次我都感到反胃 隐隐不适
I look at these things
看着这些事物
But it's hard to look past when this is the room
但这房间是我栖息之处
Where I sleep
想要忘记过去是那么艰难
I look around one of the worst things
看着四周 我记录在墙上的
I wrote on these walls
那些糟糕的事情
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
当我意识到失去妈妈的那一刻
And one of the first things I wrote was
我曾记下的尤为重要的事情是
I was shot with a call
多希望我可以打个电话给她
But I should just stop now we ain't
但此刻我应该停下来
Got enough room in this song
这首歌里已包含太多
And I regret the fact that I struggled
我感到悔恨不已 因为我试图在
Trying to find who I am
找回自我
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
我自欺欺人着 告诉自己我已竭尽全力
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like
假装不在意 假装这些都不算什么
It's out of my hands
我的无能为力
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
但每次看到这一切 我会感到暴躁如雷
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
我不想让这些信任问题来吞噬我的人生
And at the rate I'm going probably
也许至死那一刻
Still be there when I die
我都会留在此地
Congratulations you'll always have a room in my mind
恭喜你 我永远不会再忘记你了
The question is will I ever clean the walls off in time
问题是 将来我会把墙上的一幕幕清扫干净吗
Insidious is blind inception
狡诈作恶只是盲目的开始
What's reality with all these questions
这些问题的真相又是怎样
Feels like I missed my alarm slept in slept in slept in
我好像错过了清醒时刻 再次昏睡过去
Slept in broken legs but I chase perfection
双腿无力但仍旧追逐着完美人生
These walls are my blank expression
我的面庞就像四周的墙壁般茫然
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
我被困在意识的枷锁中 无法挣脱
And it's lonely inside this mansion inside this mansion
这个屋子是如此孤寂 我独自一人游荡其中
So this part of my house no one's been in it for years
这段回忆已埋在我的心房许久
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
我建起心的堡垒不让任何人进入
Cause if I do there's a chance
害怕若是让他们走进内心
That they might disappear and not come back
他们或许会消失不见
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
我承认我有些神经过敏 害怕他人走进心中
So I just leave my doors locked
我把心门紧闭
You might get other doors to open up this doors not
也许你能另觅新欢 但休想获得我的青睐
I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
我不会给你们机会来伤害我
And I'll be the only person that I can blame
只有我可以责备自己
When you desert me
你放弃我时
I'm barricaded inside
我的内心对你产生隔阂
So stop watching
所以不要再窥视观望
I'm not coming to the door
我不会为你打开心扉
So stop knocking stop knocking
不要再试图撩拨我 停止吧
I'm trapped here
我受困于此
God keep saying I'm not locked in
上帝总是说 我还有救
I chose this
是我自作自受
I am lost in my own conscious
我已经迷失了自我
I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
我知道与世隔绝根本于事无补
But I didn't build this house because
但我建起堡垒
I thought it would solve 'em
并非因为这
I built it because I thought that
我筑就心墙
It would be safer in there
只为让自己安心 免于受伤
But it's not I'm not the only thing
但我不是唯一 我不是唯一
That's living in here
这样做的人
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
曾经恐惧来袭 走进我心房
Maybe that's the problem
或许这就是问题所在
'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
我从那时起 就与之周旋
I thought that he would leave but
我以为他会离开
It's obvious he never did
但很明显并非如此
He must picked the room and got
他选择来到这里
Comfortable and settled in
停留于此 生根发芽
Now I'm in the position
现在我面临着选择
It's either sit here and let him win
要么坐以待毙
Or put him back outside
要么将其驱逐
Where he came from but I never can
然而我却没有丝毫胜算
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
因为一旦这样做 我就要打开心门
Is that me or the fear talking
就是是我 还是内心的恐惧在发声
I don't know anymore
我已经分不清
It's lonly inside inside
内心是如此孤独
It's lonly
如此孤独
It's lonly oh yeah
如此孤独
It's lonly inside this mansion
这个屋子是如此孤寂 我独自一人游荡其中