Depression

I can't find myself, mm
我无处寻得自我
I get lost inside my brain
迷失在我的脑海
I think I might need help, mm
我觉得我也许需要帮助
But I pushed all of 'em away
但我推开那些虚伪的附庸者
I took the cards they dealt
我拿走他们觊觎的全部
And there's nothin' I can change
此处无一物能让我与其易之吾心
So when I'm by myself
所以当我怵而独处
I just pray for brighter days
我祈祷着沐浴明日之光
Sometimes I sit and I reminisce 'bout the good times
有时我坐下追忆起往日的美好
Wish I could get those back
希望我能再挽其流苏
I keep on runnin' these races that go in my mind
我不停地在脑海里追逐着这些事
And they go on these tracks
所唱即我所思
I'm not ready to erase all my memories, mm
我未筹能抹去我脑海中的回忆
I fight depression and I let it get the best of me
与心魔抗争，它已快要将我击溃
Now therе's nowhere to run, nowherе to go
如今已无处可逃，无处可匿
Look around, there's liquor bottles all on the floor
片刻清醒，冰冷的地板上横竖多少酒瓶
Fillin' up the space inside my heart and my home
我的身边和心中都是杯盘狼藉，一片混乱
Drownin' out these thoughts until they leave me alone
当这些思想暂离我而去，方能喘息片刻
I can't find myself, mm
我无处寻得自我
I get lost inside my brain
迷失在我的脑海
I think I might need help, mm
我觉得我也许需要帮助
But I pushed all of 'em away
但我推开那些虚伪的附庸者
I took the cards they dealt
我拿走他们觊觎的一切
And there's nothin' I can change
此处无一物能让我与其易之吾心
So when I'm by myself
当我怵而独处
I just pray for brighter days
我祈祷着沐浴明日之光
These thoughts are drainin' all my energy, mm
这些思想使我沉沦不再，心衰力竭
I try to tell 'em to God, they said I'm goin' insane
我向上帝倾诉，他们都认为我疯了
And then they recommended therapy, mm
告诉我我需要他们的救赎，哼
And I go and talk to a man who's gettin' paid to explain
我走开，找到请来为我的MDD（抑郁症）作解的医生
He started sayin' that the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain
他说只不过是我的脑海被焦虑产物所占据
Ain't connectin' to accomplishments associated with movin' on
所以在前进路上再难有所造诣
In life and passive things that my heart cannot contain
我的心无法承受生活中如此多的消极之事
So the happiness won't sustain
所以幸福离我而去
And he read me my options, mm
他宣读吾之所抉
He said "Here goes a pill, only take two, eat a meal"
他说，“这里有一片药，吃下就好了”
And they don't know how I feel
但他们根本不懂，区区药片不足以对抗我所陷之心魔
I can't find myself, mm (Can't find myself)
我无处寻得自我（寻得自我）
I get lost inside my brain
迷失在我的脑海
I think I might need help, mm (Think I might need help)
我觉得我也许需要帮助
But I pushed all of 'em away
但我推开那些虚伪的附庸者
I took the cards they dealt (Took the cards they dealt)
我拿走他们觊觎的一切
And there's nothin' I can change
此处无一物能让我与其易之吾心
So when I'm by myself (When I'm by myself)
当我怵而独处
I just pray for brighter days
我祈祷着沐浴明日之光
Should I drown all these thoughts, or should I leave 'em to float?
我应该丢掉这些想法吗？或许这样我能飘然而活？
I got all of my flaws livin' inside of this boat
我与吾之缺口共济此舟
I've been anchored in pain, the weight is makin' me choke
我已深陷于这些痛苦，它不断痛击我，使我快要窒息
It's gettin' harder to breathe, it's pullin' right at my throat
呼吸变得越来越困难，它快要锁死我的咽喉
I've been hopin' for change, but don't know how to restart
我对改变充满希冀，但我不知从何下手
They say you ain't a man when you're exposin' your heart
你展露自己的脆弱，他们说你不是个男人
Then they say you insane until it tears you apart
他们言你已疯，不将你撕裂誓不罢休
And then it cuts you so deep and they can tell by the scars
他们的言语深深刺入我的体内，这样他们又能攻击你的伤口
We can only see change when we accept who we are
当我们接受自己是谁后，便只能从外审视自己
Try to run from the shame and you will never get far
试图逃离自己的不堪过去，但你将原地驻足
Don't you bottle the pain and live your life in the dark
你将痛苦深藏就会永远活在黑暗之中
You're meant to break from those chains and shine as bright as a star
你说你要冲出世俗，光芒四射
Don't you ever tell yourself that your depression
但你甚至没有面对过自己的低迷
Is the reason you won't make it or that happiness is not in your cards
这就是你无法成功的原因，也无法拥有真正的快乐
With our God, you can beat all the odds
上帝与我们同在，你可以战胜那些困难
Keep your faith and you'll never be lost and say
执信念于心中，你就永远不会迷失着说
I can't find myself, mm
我无处寻得自我
I get lost inside my brain
迷失在我的脑海
I think I might need help, mm (I think I might need help)
我觉得我也许需要帮助
But I pushed all of 'em away (I pushed all of them away)
但我推开那些虚伪的附庸者
I took the cards they dealt
我拿走他们觊觎的一切
And there's nothin' I can change
此处无一物能让我与其易之吾心
So when I'm by myself
当我怵而独处
I just pray for brighter days
我祈祷着沐浴明日之光