you\'d never know

You'd never know
你绝不知道
I was fighting for my life eight months ago
八个月前 我还在与死神搏斗
I shut the door and covered the windows
我关上门窗
'Cause the sunlight hurt my eyes
因为阳光太刺眼
I couldn't even go outside for so, so long
我好长 好长时间都不能出门
And you couldn't tell
你  无法 察觉
But the inside of my head was a living hell
但我脑中分明就是  人间地狱
I tried my best explaining how it felt
我尽力解释心中感受
But nobody ever understood
但没人能理解
Doctor said that everything looks good
医生说一切正常
So I blamed myself
我便怪起了自己
I don't think I'd ever been so lonely
我想 我从未如此孤独过
Didn't know if I would make it out
我都不知道自己能否逃出生天
The dead of the winter of my life
我生命中最冷的严冬
In the middle of the summertime
却出现在盛夏
And it still haunts me now
直到现在 这问题仍困扰着我
But you'd never know
但你永远不会知道
That it took me months to step outside alone
我花了好几个月才能独自出门
'Cause my body still gets tense when I walk home
因为走回家 我的身体还是会紧张
Past the spot where it all went dark
经过一片漆黑时
It's like a movie flashing back in parts
就像电影的片段回放
That cuts deep and slow
深切而又缓慢
(Ohh)
(哦)
I don't think I'd ever been so lonely
我想 我从未如此孤独过
Didn't know if I would make it out
我都不知道自己能否逃出生天
The dead of the winter of my life
我生命中最冷的严冬
In the middle of the summertime
却出现在盛夏
And it still haunts me now
直到现在 这问题仍困扰着我
Everyone said
每个人都说
You look fine from the outside
你外表看起来很好
But in my mind I was upside down and screaming
但脑海里 我一片狼藉 不停尖叫着
What the hell is wrong with me? (Oh-oh-oh)
我到底是怎么了？
Tryna make it make sense, making my head spin
试着赋予意义 却让我头晕目眩
Now I pray to forget 'cause I'm still here screaming
而今我祈祷忘记一切 只因我还在原地歇斯底里
What the hell is wrong with me?
我到底是怎么了？
You'd never know
你绝不知道
Oh, you'd never know, no, no
哦 你永远都不会知道